You continue to be the sweetest girl I know. Tonight I had a headache so we sat on the couch and watched a little bit of a Mickey Mouse Christmas show, a special treat for you! Pluto accidentally made a mess of the Christmas decorations and Mickey got really upset. You noticed how Pluto was sad and started to tear up and asked why he was so sad. It was the saddest and dearest show of emotions. I love that you care so much.
I love the way you stare lovingly at my huge belly and talk to your “Baby.” I love the way you insist on giving him a kiss and hug each night and my heart swells every time you hold my tummy and tell your brother fun facts like “did you know pipes are under the street?” and talk to him about what you’ll do together: “When you get bigger, we can play. It’s Kaya. My color is pink and orange. What’s your favorite color?” I love the way you draw him photos and dream of the things you’ll do together.
You have the biggest heart. We’ve been having a lot of rain the last few weeks and Hank has been so uneasy about the thunder. I love watching you comfort him. Last week was the first time you noticed he was scared. You saw him shaking and asked why he was “moving.” You told him the rain would stop and asked him if he wanted us to make him feel better before showering him with hugs and kisses. You told him that sometimes we get scared of “strange things” and daddy makes us feel better. Tonight you kept checking on him while he hid in the bathtub. Please keep this sweetness forever, my love.
It’s been a while since I’ve written to you. We’ve been so busy! I was looking over the little notes I take from time to time on my phone about funny or new things you do or say and I can’t believe how much you’ve grown in just a few months. You are so opinionated and talkative and smart (you’re so good at counting and recognize so many numbers and letters now!)! Here’s a list of a few of my favorite things you’ve said recently:
- 8/18 – I walked into your room after you woke up and the first thing you said was, “Mama, I was thinking we could get ice cream and then go to the place and maybe a show at the place.”
- 8/20 – “I’m not really much hungry to this taco.” “Ice cream is kind of like medicine.”
- 9/14 – “Good night my mommy sweetie.”
- 9/2018 – “I love you but you’re taking a long time.”
- 9/2018 – “Is it soggy?” (I haven’t heard you replace your “f’s” with “s’s” in a while, but this was one of my favorite things about your speech. You still use the letter “w” instead of “l” though and it’s too cute!
- 10/16 – You were reading a book and said “everybody, everybody, if you see a skunk or a dude that’s not funny, go to your family” “Everybody, everybody, go to your family if you see something stink on you.” I laughed for so long at this.
- 11/4 – If our house was a little bigger, we could fit a helicopter in it.”
- 11/9 – You woke up on your birthday and dad and I burst in singing happy birthday to you and you smiled at us and said “sometimes my tongue is on my pillow,” then “is baby brother out?” We’ve been telling you for months that he’s coming out after you turn three and I love that you’ve been looking forward to his arrival so much!
Speaking of your birthday, you’re a three-year-old now! I can’t believe how fast time has gone! I love that you still want me to snuggle you even though you’re often very independent. I love that you say “Mama” or “Mom” at the end of almost every sentence. I love you curiosity and how observant you are, even though you must ask well over 100 questions every day.
Last month you felt your brother really move for the first time. I’ll never forget how you looked up at me in awe as you shouted “he’s moving!” As your time as an only child quickly comes to end, I want you to know how much I love you. How I’m scared that we’ll grow apart, but you’ll always have my heart. I can’t wait to see you become a big sister and a big girl. These last few weeks while I’ve been on disability, have meant so much to me and I’m so thankful I was able to spend a little extra time just the two of us. I hope you run to the door screaming “MAMA!” when I pick you up and jump into my arms forever. I promise we’ll still go on the coffee shop and dinner dates that you love so much. Please know that even when I have to take care of your baby brother, I’ll still make time for you and I’ll never love you any less.
I feel like there are so many other things I want to tell you, but for now I’ll share a few of my favorite photos of you over the last few months. I promise to write you again soon, my sweet girl.
No matter how big you get, you’ll always be my baby.
I love you,